13. Why Are You Holding Your Breath?

Would you know how to describe it?


Your inner breath. Beyond your lungs.
You see, you’re holding it until your brain itches from lack of Fresh.

I want to release. Make peace. Restart the cyclic tendencies of Nature.

Your breath now has colors.
So when you suck it all in, it’s a swarming Blue.
The Blue, it folds around your soul. Like a new bruise.
Now, let’s understand—your soul turns blue after you refuse to exhale.
You’re riding against the cyclic tendencies of Nature.
Nature’s nature is to heal. Nature’s nature is to move on.
You say, “No man. You shall not proceed. YOU are on stubborn territory.

Then those tiny atoms of life, just as they were a slate of Blue, they slowly sparkle down to a Green.
Green is lesser than Blue. Just ask the sky and the earth.

Particles of air, they’re not supposed to change colors. They need the consistency of what we believe it to be. When you stare into the heavens, do you expect to see atomic bombs peaking through? Do you expect them to grow into greater and greater circles, a truly unnatural existence? Everything we expect of the atmosphere is stagnant. The colors we expect to see, they’re all the same. The movements of the clouds, it’s an unchanging pace. When we peer into the sun’s waving arms, do we expect to see the moon?

So when you breath in, do you expect to hold on forever and yet keep living?

I do not want to inform you of what comes after Green.
It is not what you expect.
It is not Pink, not Silver, nor Tan.

It is a question.

Yes, I had to do what I didn’t want. I didn’t want you to know.

But the important thing is, that question is asked by your heart.

Because your heart is the first to realize what’s happening.
It wills you to bring Hands to Mouth and pry the dried glue of hopelessness so that it can squeeze one drop of Desire onto your thrashing, dying tongue.

As of now, your body is recovering.
Your lips are cracked. The eyes, dysfunctional.

More importantly, the eyes think they’re still seeing Green.
It’s the most crucial part.

This is where you shine.
This is where you answer your heart.
This is where you bring all Force and Might back into your mind.
This is where you release your grip on your own two palms, otherwise known as Nothing.
This is where you close your lids to deceive the eyes. They’re thinking they see Green.

Deceiving false beliefs is a double negative. Ignorance is bliss.

Do yourself a favor.
“Try to realize it’s all within yourself; no one else can make you change.”

Do yourself a favor.

Let it go.
It’s Nature’s flavor to JUST WORK.

Let her strings vibrate nutritious music into your own lengthy bones, where it will feed you forever.

Peace of mind, Peace of mind. To see strings unwind.

Now, let go.

Hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhuuuuuuuh.